paranoia girl never dreamed before

she never looks out the window
(someone might see)
she never saw the sun go up
and down (and across)
never hearing spring
never smelling autumn
paranoia girl never dreamed before

she never leapt
she never flew
she just slept and 
she never knew
what life could look like inside-out
paranoia girl never dreamed before

because it might hurt
because she may cry

everyone else has eyes that she
knows are pressed against (peering in)
the only window in
the only room she ever sits in
paranoia girl never dreamed before

she never felt interpretation
opinions rot unheard
unused (and
immature)
paranoia girl never dreamed before

her rainbows have to be real
or they don't exist